Golas

Sniff, Sniff... I miss my Golas.
Am I really that materialistic... well, yes. You don't know me if you ask that question. I had a really cool pair of red shoes that were perfect for me. They had great all-around grip to them, good arches, and were no laces, just velcro. That and they were really cool looking. I've not seen anything like them on anyone else.
I don't think I'd ever have gotten rid of them, they were so comfy, except that Tira ate the velcro a long time ago. I got so upset I actually searched for another pair like them (UK size 5) and it's mission:impossible. Where oh where did those little shoes go? After a no go on finding them, I just stuck it out. I got a safety pin and just attached the half eaten piece a bit firmer to the normal side. It worked for a while, but it was harder to work lately. So, I finally got on the bandwagon with Chris and gave away butt loads of stuff to Goodwill... and sad to say, the Gola's went away.
Now, Gola's aren't easily available in the US, and I was in London when I found them, and they were so hard to find when I actually decided on them. As far as feelings for material items go: I love my red Golas. I like them so much I've bought other styles (the red ones are the System style). I enjoy them and they are really good shoes, but they are not my signature shoes like the Systems.
"A dope pair of kicks made a girl feel good about herself." - Eve
This is very true. I feel sad that I lost such a bad-ass pair of shoes. Almost like loosing a bit of my personality and myself. If you can find it, get 'em for me, and I will pay you back. I don't care if I end up with fifty pairs. I will wear them for the rest of my life! Help me on this search, please?

Re: Death Seems Better

A letter was written about the hardships of life being coiled upon a young woman, the fire of the devil burning her while the MonSter raged at her back the enter time. She sot solace in the MSuport group, and this was a beautifully written response I had to share:





I'm so very sorry to hear that all of this crap is coming down on you at once. I know it is a very difficult time, but I want you to know something:






MS Patients are without a doubt the STRONGEST people you will ever come across. They have to deal with so much, the light and extremes of things, more than others are exposed to. MS has no pre-determined course to the disease, like cancer, aids, etc... MS will not kill you. It does not end your life. What it does do is offer us
the "unexpected" on a daily basis, it's like the suspenseful part of a movie that we don't want to watch, but have to.

What we have to do, is to not lose everything about ourselves, but to modify/change who we are. We don't have to stop doing the things we love to do, but we do have to learn how to do them in a new/different way that is compatible with the limitations set forth by our condition. It doesn't "end" things all together, we just have to
learn how to modify our daily lives to accommodate MS.

MS wants to get us down and keep us down. But even if, for example, we are used to running 5 miles a day, and have to reduce it down to 1 mile a day, We still win, because we are still not down. We are not letting MS win by modifying what we do. Just changing "how" you do things will allow you to keep doing things that you love to do. MS might make some things more difficult, but that's just making you smarter and stronger.

I understand these thoughts you are having. I had them too during my first year after being diagnosed, but then I learned that our lives don't end because of MS, just making changes to accommodate will allow us to still persevere and beat the attempts by this disease to "keep" us down.

YOU CAN DO THIS, YOU CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS. WE ARE HERE FOR YOU, HERE TO HELP YOU THROUGH THIS. WE ARE HERE TO LISTEN TO YOU, SHARE WITH YOU, BE YOUR FRIEND AND YOUR NEW EXTENDED FAMILY. IF YOU EVER FEEL ALONE IN THE WORLD BECAUSE OF MS, OR FEEL THAT THINGS ARE JUST TOO MUCH, PLEASE REMEMBER US, AND THAT WE ARE ALL HERE, WAITING TO
SHARE, SUPPORT, LISTEN AND HELP EACH OTHER THROUGH THIS.

Now please do me a favor and read the following web page, and remember that when the day is over, We are still here for you.

http://www.metanoia .org/suicide/

http://www.metanoia .org/suicide/ spagebw.htm

You can make it through this. We need you.

Take care and God Bless.