Sunday, June 27, 2010

In My Head

I'm trying to keep things in my head so they don't just pop out. I need to think things over and not act impulsively, a bad habit from bad times that needs to be rectified.
Just gotta get things figured out before I explode!

Saturday, January 30, 2010

What If

I loved reading Shel Silverstein poems when I was growing up, and this is one that still rings true. With my current state of nesting going on, I thought I'd share it with you:

What If
by Shel Silverstein

Last night, while I lay thinking here,
some Whatifs crawled inside my ear
and pranced and partied all night long
and sang their same old Whatif song:
Whatif I'm dumb in school?
Whatif they've closed the swimming pool?
Whatif I get beat up?
Whatif there's poison in my cup?
Whatif I start to cry?
Whatif I get sick and die?
Whatif I flunk that test?
Whatif green hair grows on my chest?
Whatif nobody likes me?
Whatif a bolt of lightning strikes me?
Whatif I don't grow talle?
Whatif my head starts getting smaller?
Whatif the fish won't bite?
Whatif the wind tears up my kite?
Whatif they start a war?
Whatif my parents get divorced?
Whatif the bus is late?
Whatif my teeth don't grow in straight?
Whatif I tear my pants?
Whatif I never learn to dance?
Everything seems well, and then
the nighttime Whatifs strike again!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Time

Why am I still awake?! It's so late it's early. The sun will rise any minute now, and I'm tired, but I can't go to sleep! Grrr... I hate this. Part of it's due to massive amounts of acid making it's way back up my throat (gotta love the pregnancy heartburn).
But most of it's due to anxiety. I'm going to have to take something for it tomorrow night, because tonight is pretty well shot for me taking anything. I woke up around 3 contemplating paint stuff, and ended up touching up the tree trunks for a little bit. Then decided to wait and let the paint dry... I was going to do some leaves, but I'm leaving that for now (hahaha). I think I will try again to fall asleep.